211?

I don't even know what I weigh right now and I don't really care. I have slacked the last 2 weeks and have pretty much binged as I became more and more frustrated with my marriage. I want to be happy but we are not in the same place right now. I wish we were and will try harder. Maybe if I like myself again I will like him more because I will need him less. I hate needing him and being let down because he is not in a place where he can be there for me. I miss him. I miss him so much. I hope he comes back. In the meantime, I will get back on track. Self hate won't help me fix things or live longer, so what's the point?